Have you ever asked yourself why do you feel suffocated? Why you’re depressed more often than not, even though you ‘shouldn’t’ be? These questions are a huge part of performing inner child work.
Why are you afraid of the world, scared of dealing with various people and situations? Nervous about upsetting others? Why is it that you lose your temper after you’ve sworn you will never treat the people you love this way again?
After so many years working on yourself, why do you still have distorted self evaluation? See yourself as unloved, as if you don’t belong? Why do you still lack self-confidence?
“Shouldn’t I get better about myself?” you ask yourself, and, all too often, you end up feeling bad about your low vibrational state.
You must know that it isn’t YOU who is in trouble. It’s that inner child who is crying out for attention, for love, and for all those childhood needs that went unfulfilled.
Your soul is full of emotional bruises that were never taken care of. Until you recognize and address them, these wounds are not going anywhere.
“But Edith,”, I hear you say, “I am a grownup. I don’t even remember what I went through in childhood. Other people were abused for real! So what if my dad used to yell at me sometimes and my mom ignored me… everyone has their own baggage. It is true that I am depressed, but it has nothing to do with my childhood.”
You’re right. Others may have had rougher childhoods, but that does not diminish yours. It doesn’t mean your pain is less severe, or that the inner child is less worth dealing with.
As a child, your caretakers were your only source of security, your only source of protection. When your core demands were not properly met, it hurt you. And it continues to hurt you today.
You are who you are today because of the environment you grew up in
The way we perceive ourselves, our lives, our abilities, and the world around us – these are all a direct result of our conditioning.
Your relationship with your partner, your children, your colleagues, even with money… these are all the product of ideas that were embedded in you starting the day you were born. Or concepts you concluded (falsely or accurately) according to your personal history.
Look, I am not here to blame your parents for everything that is wrong in your life. And I am definitely not a big believer in playing the victim role.
But recognizing the fact that you suffered, acknowledging that you were perhaps emotionally mistreated (even if your parents were good people who never meant to harm you) is crucial to recover through inner child work.
You owe it to yourself to take responsibility for your life by identifying the roots of your problems.
I fully believe that any current emotional problems we may have are the painful result of the treatment we experienced as children (or of our interpretation of it).
It is no wonder that millions of people suffer from flat mood. It is no wonder that people have to drag themselves to work, afraid of what the future holds. No wonder people are terrified to express who they truly are, frightened of being seen. No wonder people are looking for love and validation from others, sometimes from toxic people.
You were conditioned to become the adult you are today
What happened in your childhood that so affected your life? What happened to the inner child that has caused you to lose faith in yourself?
That lead you to doubt your abilities? To think that no one could ever truly love you?
“Don’t be stupid”; “Look at what you’ve done”; “Don’t expect anything, because people will only let you down”; “How could you do such a thing?! I will have to punish you for it”; “Do what I say – I am your mother”; “Be quiet”; “Stop crying! Be a man!”
Whatever there was, it is still there – inside your soul, the inner child. And now you have to do the work necessary to release this sorrow from your system.
Think of your inner child as a basement you use for storage. You have stored lots of impressions, situations, and emotions in this place.
Slowly, a thick layer of dust has built up over everything. You’ve never cleaned up or organized things, the place is a real mess, and now there is no more room for anything, so things are beginning to peek above the surface.
This child inside you is not going anywhere
You have been ignoring this for as long as you could, but you can no longer turn a blind eye. Your inner child is shouting. It is asking for help.
Now it’s up to you to re-parent it and dedicate yourself to do profound inner child work.
It went through turbulence and now seeks your attention. And what do you do? You ignore it.
Or you suppress it…. dismiss its anguish. Escape from it to alcoholism, drugs, or sleeping around with random people who will never fill your void.
Or you deny just how much damage you’ve been exposed to, “Oh, it wasn’t so bad. My parents always put food on the table and bought me nice clothes to wear.”
So what do you do when distress rears its ugly head? You go to sleep. Or you watch a funny movie until the sadness goes away.
You tell yourself it’s just the weather, that you will feel better when the sun comes out.
Are you overwhelmed by anxiety over what the future holds? No big deal. You take a pill, drink a hot cup of tea, or try not to think about it too much.
Have you lost your temper again? Did you yell at your wife or kids? You convince yourself it will be different next time “I will just try to be more aware of my feelings next time, and count to ten”. But you and your wife both know it’s not going to stop.
And nothing ever changes. It happens over and over and over again. These mood flactuations, your reactions to certain situations (triggers) – most of it belong to the child inside you.
Your boss criticizes you at work, and out of the blue, inner child reacts – feeling stupid and worthless. Your husband prefers going out to the local bar with his buddies on Friday night, and the wounds start bleeding again – “You don’t want me anymore.”
We cannot continue to disregard our inner child because renouncing it is neglecting ourselves.
Running away from the wounded inner child may help you now, but in the long run, the pain will not go anywhere and will attack you every time a trigger is tripped and reminds you of past trauma.
You will need to go through a deep inner child work at some point in order to move forward.
A trigger can be anything at all. It can be a smell, a sound, a familiar face that passes you by on the street, a friend criticizing you, your girlfriend not picking up the phone, not getting a job you want, a rejection from someone you asked out, a certain tone of a friend and so much more.
In fact, anything you face on any given day could wake up inner child’s wants. And then you will react like a child, instead of rationally and practically like the adult you are.
Returning to the past to do inner child work
I understand you. I, too, turned a cold shoulder to my inner child for many years. Going back can result in true misery. Living those experiences over and over again really hurts.
But let me tell you something – that’s the way to liberation, too. Going back to that time, re-living those difficult moments through flashbacks, that will lead you to break the chains that are holding you in place.
Repeating those memories again, that is the key to your release, to your independence, perhaps even a doorway to building your authentic identity.
When you were a young and innocent child, your mind could not grasp those experiences as the awful traumas they were. Why is that? In order to ensure your survival, you had to view your parents as your anchor.
They were the people you relied on for your existence. You had no choice but to suppress your hardship in order to protect yourself. Also, you were too young to tell the difference between good and bad.
As kids, our brains were not evolved enough to associate our parents’ flaws to them, and not to us. We couldn’t tell ourselves “mom is mad at me because she has negative programming and this is how she reacts to stress.” Instead, we blamed ourselves “mom is mad at me because I am bad”.
Soldiers who come back from deployment sometimes see flashbacks. After reaching safety, they can suffer from Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder – years after their combat is over. This is because their brain had to store the trauma in a secure place so it wouldn’t get in the way while they were fighting.
Deep cleansing of the psyche
Re-entering painful childhood moments has the potential to cure inner child’s wounds. Why?
Because you get to have a real energetic release, not only through your senses, but on a cellular level. As if you’re taking out an obstruction in your body.
There are many psychologists who support this method for inner child work, say this process is enabled because it’s going through your subconscious level. This dive inwards and can break open all those stuck places that have accumulated in your psyche.
I have no doubt that conventional long-term psychiatric treatment can help you progress and clear fixed mental blocks and destructive patterns.
At the same time, there is no doubt that any solution must begin at the root of the problem, and that is in your subconscious mind. When you speak to a professional, any recollections and understandings spring from your conscious self, which does not tap into the real, raw experience that is stored deep within your soul.
So, how can we go back to work on our inner child?
First of all, you should read Dr. Jean Jenson’s book, “Reclaiming Your Life: a Step-by-Step Guide to Using Regression Therapy to Overcome the Effects of Childhood Abuse”.
Dr. Jenson specializes in Regression Therapy (sometimes also known as Primal Therapy). This method is a journey into our inner child’s world.
This is a powerful type of therapy that helps you on the deepest level by cleaning your soul of the fears, anxieties, self-doubt, shame, guilt, anger, abandonment and all those other negative habits that you carry with you still.
One cautionary note: fixing the broken parts of your soul and learning to work with our inner child’s needs takes time. It doesn’t happen overnight.
It is entirely possible that you will never break completely free of your ache since it has already left its mark on you. But that’s OK. Imagine you own a shed and all you can do is organize the stuff in there, maybe do some dusting, throwing out things you no longer need and putting things where they belong.
You might not get rid of everything, nor you shouldn’t, but the cleanliness and order will bring you nothing but relief.
After the work you put in, your inner child will finally be able to breathe. As a result, the adult in you finally get to be happier, relieved, at peace, hopeful, and overall satisfied. It’s like a mental detox.
There are many more stages to this process that I will not enumerate here for the simple reason that it is better if you read the book and follow the instructions in it.
Another great recommendation is Dr. Harville Henrdix book, ‘keeping the love you find‘. This one will help you understand your development as a child, connect the dots and give you a better understanding of your personality -why you behave the way you do… the reasons you attract unhealthy partners and so on.
Another powerful way to cleanse your soul
I created a subliminal meditation that will help you release those energy blockages and heal your inner child.
This tool is intended for those of you who have repressed traumatic memories as a defense mechanism, who are unable to deal with the truth of those experiences, or who deny the scope of the transgressions they faced.
Even if you do remember painful moments from your past, you will be able to use my program to allow the empowering suggestions to percolate into your subconscious.
Through inner child work, people can liberate themselves of old stored trauma, purify themselves from hunger for unmet needs, manifest joy and well-being and start thriving again.
* Important note: This article should not be taken as a substitute for medical or psychological treatment.
* Listening to this program should only be undertaken with the permission of physician or psychologist, and is subject to all conditions.